Like most twenty-somethings, I have an overwhelming amount of unknowns in my life.
After graduating college over a month ago, I have honestly been surprised with myself at how those uncertainties seemed to not cause me any stress or worry. While most of that is due to the peace of God, I was also filled with excitement at the idea of watching this adventure unfold.
However, my head and heart have been in a spin the past few days and it’s caused me to reflect a lot on where my life is heading and what will happen in my future.
Here’s what I know:
- Until August 28, I am living in Chicago working at Golin as an intern.
Here’s what I don’t know:
- Will I be offered a full-time job at Golin after the internship?
- Will I want to take it? Do I want to stay in PR?
- What would I do if I don’t?
- Will I want to stay in Chicago?
- Would I want to move somewhere else?
- Where else would I move to?
- For how long would I live there?
- What job would I look for?
- Would I know anyone there?
- Who would I live with?
- And the list can continue on and on.
Honest moment: I wish I had some of these answers.
Reality: I have no idea when I will have these answers.
I think this season of our lives is exhilarating, but because many of us don’t have our lives figured out (and who really does anyway), I wanted to be vulnerable and honest and say that it’s also scary absolutely terrifying.
It is important for us to be real with ourselves — our fears, dreams and hopes — in order to look towards our future and strive to accomplish those goals and purposes. Yes, I am uncertain about where and what I will be doing two months from now — and that’s scary. But…I am certain that these experiences are important, valuable and teachable, whether or not I can fully grasp or see it now.
In seasons of uncertainty, it is important for us to take steps out of our immediate vision and gain perspective. As I’ve said to a group of people before, “In those times of darkness, stop looking within, and first look up and then look around. When we pay attention to ourselves, that’s when we get in those cycles of negative thinking. But when we look up, we obviously can re-center ourselves and have our identity in Christ, and then look around and you can look around in this room and see all the community and fellowship and people that are there that want to know, that want to be there for you, and sometimes you just have to be the first one to speak.”
So this is me speaking, being honest with what I’m currently feeling. Even though I have limited answers to my endless list of questions, I am reminding myself (and encourage you to do the same) to step back and look at this (job, relationship, family issue, etc.) from a different perspective. Just because we have a cloudy vision right now doesn’t mean it will stay like that forever.
I listened to a song this morning that was encouraging to my heart, and I hope it does the same for you.
Doesn’t matter what I feel
Doesn’t matter what I see
My hope will always be
In Your promises to me
Now I’m casting out all fear
for Your love has set me free
My hope will always be
In Your promises to me
The Beauty In Our Brokenness 